God, I can't help but feel really angry & disappointed. Why can't You just help me.
I'm really tired, Father. This never ends...

Dear Father, it's gonna be one heck of a week coming up. Probably one of the toughest mentally. Do keep a watch out for me, & shower me with strength, courage, bravery to overcome the odds & unfamiliarity. As much as I do not want to get used to the environment, allow me to embrace it. But please, let this be short-term, because I won't want to belong there. Let everything go well Lord. Amen!

Dear God.

Dear Father, here's the little me speaking out to you. I may be small, & just another guy with all sorts of insignificant prayers. But life hasn't been kind, from my perspective, it has been too much for me. I know my faith for You had been wavering, neither here nor there. But believe me when I say I believe in You ultimately.
Father, the past few months have by far been the toughest of my life. Screwing up A levels, post-operation period of the infected cyst, NS. Probably it's nothing much compared to those living in poverty, who are trying to make ends meet. I know, my problems are so much insignificant compared to theirs. But, I think that's pretty much all I can take. All of these happenings are all part of your Great plans for me right? As much as I hope to think otherwise. What are they for? To allow me to brave through them & emerge as a better and stronger person character-wise so I can glorify you in future? Yes, I would love to glorify you, but isn't that an easier route to it. Ok maybe not, afterall there are no shortcuts to emerging as a better person, they say. But seriously Father, I'm losing purpose & direction of life. Please, please make things easier for me, will you? Please, Father, steer me back to the correct route or path. I can't imagine myself in this manner for the next 2 years or so.
Holy Father, name above every name, what I need now is not only your help in life, but also your presence. I'm so afraid, I'll steer away from you like how I did time after time again. Please God, do me just this favour, allow me to get what I want for NS, A levels once again, & whatever there is of my life. I do not want to hate my life anymore, I really want to embrace it. In face of current situation, it is impossible for me to do it. It's not doing me any good either.
Dear Father, take my life once again, I'll lay it down once again. All I have, I'll give it all to you lord. Purify my heart & soul Lord, let my mind be filled only you & purposes you have for me.
Father, I love you, & I know you do too. Please correct my life. Amen.

Aye!

Let this get as awkward as it can, I do not want to care.

Shall walk around with a sherlock holmes microscopic view of the floor because I do not want to step on your toes.

I will flee immediately seeing those...

I, the balloon, have finally been released into the clouds.

Far away from you.

Here's me. Me's here.

Hasn't been on blogger for like 3 years?
Ha, well who knows I would be back.
Abandoned livejournal for temporarily/for good.
There are many things I want to say but I can't.
Hmm, things like friendship on the rocks on the inside.
But everyone being oscar actors on the outside.
Sigh, life used to be so much fun when we were all innocent, living our head in the clouds, ignorant of everything.
But well, now I can't.
Perhaps it's because I haven't been in a love relationship, so I treat friendships a little more seriously.
& the closer the friend one is, the more I would expect of him/her.
Sadly, I guess friendships do reach saturation point, & this certain friendship of mine is becoming diluted.
Oh well. I guess like relationships, there are times in friendships where you have to learn to let go as well.

Just gotta learn to live with it.
Perhaps if I had the courage to pursue after some of things in life I loved,
life wouldn't be like that.

Talking to myself feels...good.